I always feel like what happened to me wouldn't have been so bad if there was actual help. If our society was more forgiving and able to support my parents so they wouldn't be stressed to the point of abuse. What they did is just a symptom of this piece of crap world. I had to save myself...
Ugh! I’m so frustrated! I’ve been with this therapist for 4 months. I’ve shared (for the first time ever) my CSA which was incredibly painful. I chose to share this because I felt like I needed to. There have been times when I have felt that she is trying to genuinely help and cares about my...
Im so frustrated and angry. My T keeps saying 'you cant do EMDR wrong, that theres not any rights or wrongs'. If thats true then why do I feel like such a failure. I know all the horrible stuff is in there but I cant get in deep enough to confront it. My SUDs are already relatively high, how bad is it gona be if I finally do get in there.
I am so frustrated. I am tired of panicking when I hear someone say my name in a certain way. I'm not even sure what that 'certain' way is. But it gets me every time. As soon as I hear it, I have instant panic, my heart starts pounding, I start shaking, I feel dizzy, etc. and then it takes...
I'm so frustrated and depressed and tired, and I feel unloved, unsupported, alone, and like I specifically don't deserve the treatments. I don't belong here and my mental health has literally never been worse
I get frustrated and start feeling very bleh but like I said I don't feel emotions very strongly sometimes a memory will make me really want to cry but I can only get two tears out then I stop. repressing. it feeds the dissociation.
Tired of everything, want to go back in time and can't. Miss the way the world used to be. Frustrated. Angry. Sad. Afraid. Self destructive. My life is completely constricted due to various horrendous things I've experienced. It's not a life.
